OMG I can't believe this year is coming to an end. This year I have overcome so much. Although a bit delayed but indeed I'm on the greener side of certain situations.
The numbness of 2009 faded with my courage to feel this year =) I'm no longer the zombie I use to be (applause). Even though now-a-days I'm always shedding tears for dam near everything, just to be able to feel so abundantly enough to cry is huge compared to last year and the year before. I journeyed back to my empathetic self (gift and a curse but I'll take that any day over nonchalant indifference).
This year I created, I changed some lives, and I danced. I gained foresight with clarity and I've decoded some of the chains that have held me back from freedom.
I'm thankful for those I've traveled through this year with. Everyone I hold dear to me has brought value to my life in some way. All Godsends to my spirit, to my mourning, to my happiness. (I could hug and kiss them until the end of time) I take so much pride in all of them.
I'm thankful for those I've had to remove myself from. All are responsible for some of the vital lessons I've learned this year. Helping me to reflect upon myself and teaching me the power of forgiveness. There is no hate, just space ;-) ...........(mucho space for some lol)
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I've loved my family so hard this year. Taking the time to really feel how they touch my life. They are my home, my safe space away from the corrupt ass ways of the world. I've seen that and the value in having that so LOUD this year.
I have also continued learning how to value myself. This year I have loved me on a different level. I'm such a freakin WINNER even with my losses I've always won. I've rediscovered why I am so special and that the road less traveled is a royal one that everyone doesn't have to understand. (rare gem) I am ok with myself and most times by myself lol (really) I've become (again) one of my own very best friends. In knowing all of this I am able to respect myself as such.
I'm looking into the New Year with prosperity, movement, LOVE, grace, growth and REFINEMENT ;-)
I plan to be fearless in shinning my light wherever I stand.
So, for those who have been following me on twitter and following my blog you may know that I love 2pac Shakur. Like with so much of me I love his soul smh. more on him
In the spirit of Collective Work and Responsibility (Ujima), I came across this interview.
Today is the 3rd day of Kwanzaa!Ujima meaning collective work and responisbility. The word responsibility is so relevant. I take full responsibility for myself and my actions. I also take the responsibility to educate people especially my ladies of my positive findings on this yellow brick road that I'm on. I'm all about each one teach one. But......................... after I have made you aware, you are no longer my responsibility. I've done my part. I cannot fight other people's battles and I cannot make the horse drink from the fountain of knowledge once I've given them the map =/. I am a very loyal team player but at the end of the day (lol) I am directly responsible for myself. (and my sisters because I am indeed my sisters' keeper ;-) )
You guys it's one of my favorite times of the year (despite this ratchet cold weather :-/). Although it's freezing in many places I feel so warm with love and family. Today marks the celebration of God's gift to us. For that I am forever thankful.
Take the time today to think of those who may be lonely on this day. Say a little prayer for them.
I hope you get everything on your wish list this year =) and if you don't please don't be a brat. I will personally send you a lump of coal! LOL
Anyway,
Yall be good for goodness sake lol. Enjoy this day in the name of it's purpose. And don't forget to tell someone you love them.
I'm sure you all have probably already seen Keri Hilson's new video for the song "The Way You Love Me"................... O_o
A little background on my feelings about Keri:
Ok so I really don't like the image (her the artist that comes across outside of her lyrics and voice laid down on a track. What I see of her, and not her physical looks because she's beautiful) of Keri Hilson she's pretty corny to me as far as her image is concerned (As a singer/songwriter I do like her, although I liked her much more as that before she created this image and really broke out into the music industry as a solo act). She's corny to me because she tries so very hard to make almost every thing sexy. I think the effort that she puts into trying to portray sexy is what annoys me. To me sexy is something that should be pretty effortless. Subjects and themes that don't call for sex appeal she's either putting on the 'sexy face' or grinding and winding.
The only reason I was a tad bit excited to see this video is because it's Ms. LaurieAnn Gibson's Directorial Debut. And I love her as an artist. I love her passion, discipline, zeal, choreography, and urgency for performing and showmanship (esp when it comes to dance).
So as I began to watch I had a smile on my face thinking "Yay! this has a storyline. There's a little skit. I get some acting. I see JoJo and I think I saw Hillary Duff way way in the background trying to get her dirty girl on lol #FTW", I say in my head. As soon as the beat dropped my eyes were then violated =/. There were so many got dam crotch shots, while she was half nude smh. She lol danced so hard/vulgar/wild that at one point she looked like a drunk white girl with no rhythm that happened to be on beat. (read carefully) lmao. But really, A HOT FUNKY FIERY MESS! "It looked like It smelled" lmao said by my sister. I wasn't able to appreciate the art of the filming and editing, nor the storyline. There was no real story. It was a mockery.
After I watched with my sisters and we began expressing the way we felt, we started to compare the video to other music video's we felt were sexy but still didn't go that far.
The intensity level will gradually build.
yall know I had to put this in here
One of the sexiest video's I've ever seen
so you know I had to post this right after lol
Janet is the epitome of sexy universally hands down. (that's why she's my wife ;-) lol). But as far as directing and film is concerned. There is an artistic approach to these video.
As we proceed......
I'm putting this I guess for the lyrical content (she's talking about her poom poom) yea I'm reaching lol I just wanted to see Bey so here's a treat.
But even here there is still a flirt and tease.
Ok now really back to our scheduled production for real.
Now this was raunchy but alt least there was a build up dang, some four play to the eyes. which softened the vulgarity. And you can still appreciate the art in the film making with the different angles and shots.
*side-note* I really don't care for kissing in video's. To me it's unnecessary and non creative. There are too many other ways to achieve that image with music and film but, in this video there was still a build up/a little four play even some charm by Chris before the vulgarity.
(I know Kenny is gonna love this lol check out her blog)
Now Ciara is not my favorite artist at.all. but this video doesn't offend me. And I put this in here to compare they lyrical content and the dancing. There is still a little finesse there.
This chick done jumped off a cliff. Vixen gone wrong. And I know Lauri-Ann is all for empowering women but this to me is a submissive ass video. And please don't get me wrong I am all about sexy, sassy choreography as I create and perform it myself, there just has to be a balance and this video is off the deep end. The lyrics! WTF lol I'm going to assume she wrote them because she's a songwriter, but the shyt sounds like her brain got tired. No Hate! It just looks like a cry to maintain relevance =/. It's so very unfortunate because I think she's a pretty good talent.
So after all that jazz I came across this............
Lawwwwwwwwwwwd Hammercy smh
Pro's: He's promoting safe sex as did Janet in Anytime Anyplace, there was a build up. Loved the Kanye track in the beginning (S/O to Heartbreak & 808's). And I just love his voice.
Did he really have to go soft porn though (as necolebitchie coined it)?!?!!? O_o
Love it! Enough said. "I'll be that" all day I will because it's not fair (what in this world is fair), if I have the space and opportunity to make shyt a bit more fair regarding women in any industry that calls for respect then I feel it's my duty, and it's yours as well.
Here's my little recap on the show last night, it may be a choppy recap because there was a lot on TV last night; RHOA, and Nicki Minaj had her documentary on MTV so bare with me.
1. R. Kelly is a musical beast. I wish he could have done more of his throwback jams. Oh and he ended with a stage full of dancers ;-)
2. Ne-yo's performance was eehhhhhhhhhh ok. His chorus dancers or the choreography was extra mediocre =/ and those chicks didn't have on any spanks O_o. (What the hell kind of performer are you -_-)
3. The Anita Baker Tribute!!!!! Highlight of the show to me.
"Soul music to me is the truth" and her influences are
Mahalia Jackson
Sarah Vaughn
So many amazing voices serenaded the room in her honor (I'm trying to find the vid)
Goapele, and El DeBarge also sang in tribute to her. Anita got up during El's performance and got us all excited anticipating her to take the mic ...................ehhh not she just did a little two step lol.
4. I want to Congratulate the award virgins of the night, Melonie Fiona and Bruno Mars. It's about damn time for Melonie especially for her song 'It Kills Me' the lyrical content alone is as real as it gets. Bruno's acceptance speech was so cute.
5. Kim Fields was tryna get her sexy lioness on =/ lol
lol she looks good though.
6. Janelle Monae was radiant as always. She's such a beauty. She won an award as well
"Embrace the things that make you unique and use them as your super powers"
*did yall see Ms. Badu's ole chunky butt lol. that's what good food and good loving will get you right there*
7. The Ron Isley Tribute. Another highlight for me.
Favorite part of that tribute was seeing Bilal perform and Chante Moore, Ron, and R Kelly's skit.
Ron's wife is cute but she ain't got nothin on Angela Winbush
I'm just saying =/ (HU! Go Bison)
8. Oh and Taraji and Terrence seemed to have had them a koontastic time lol
I love me some Taraji wit her DC ass (HU!!!! Go Bison) and Terrence just melts my heart at glance ;-)
9. Seeing Chante Moore and Jessie Boykins III made my heart smile and the rest was pretty much a blur =/ The dancing let me down honestly I wish I could have casted and choreographed.
Well here we go again smh. Raz-B has more to rant about. I just wish they whoever they are would get to the bottom of it. I would love to see this all go down in court. People are acting like he shouldn't have anything to say smdh (shows you what kind of world we're really living in). Unfortunate.
And I guess this is the day we remember to give thanks. I mean us who could care less about that whole "pilgrim story" =/ (well the story they'd like us to believe anyway).
Even though I whisper my "thank you's" everyday, I'm glad for this day when we can come together in unison with our hearts and belly's and say "Thank you" :-)
There is so much for me to be thankful for I could write a book lol. Most of all I'm thankful to BE. Thankful to LOVE. Thankful to SEE. Thankful to FEEL.
I'm blessed to have a family that I love with every ounce of me through all the storms, and I love'em right back. I'm blessed to have friends that are loyal and posers that live to betray me. I'm thankful for the adversities that lead to the sweet sweet triumphs. I'm thankful for the vision that looks in the mirror fearlessly (I see all my beauty and all my ugly and I'm not afraid). I'm thankful for this gift/ this curse; EMPATHY that allows me to feel and connect on a real raw level. I'm so thankful for this light I have within and the spirit that surrounds me, protecting me. I feel it so LOUD!!
I'm so thankful for this happy I posses even in my solitude. (don't doubt it's real lol). I'm thankful for what lies ahead (so anxious for that). I'm thankful for this feisty fighter I have inside me that is so passion driven.........
Ok so now I'm in tears so I'll stop here but I am oh so very very thankful for so many things. Even the little things. :'-)
Yall all have a safe and festive Thanksgiving!!! I'm thankful for you too.
A moment of silence for the Native Americans who were abused in the name of this day. And for those today that may not have a family or food. I ask that nourishment is provided in some way.
Communication- Please don't feel that the LESS you state means the LESS she knows therefore the LESS she can get mad about!! That's the most backwards thinking ever. All that means is that there is much MORE to find out about, the much MORE to address, therefore the MORE angry/upset women get. Men, you can save a lot of drama by being open in communication, if your talking to a bunch of females say it, if your not looking for a relationship (which none of you seem to be) saying so is not going to deter us, for some of us, we accept the challenge.
Consideration- Respecting someone is being considerate. Take in to consideration that women that work, go to school have a career, maintain healthy friendships, God fearing, family oriented woman deserve nothing less than what they are portraying. Men fail to realize that once you take for granted how good a woman is by not appreciating or acknowledging her efforts in just simply MAINTAINING womanhood, they are disrespecting her as a person. There are too many woman that are SLACKERS, not taking care of their HEALTH or BODY, and just rather "lay down" and get F$%$@$, (and then screw u for child support) so the few that are stepping up to the challenge in today's trifling society truly do deserve recognition, maybe by a friendly movie or dinner date will suffice from time to time. Consider treating the worthy woman different than the "rest of them".
CONSISTENCY!! This is the KEY, it ties all the C's together! If you are not going to communicate or consider shit in the beginning don't start or stop now. Becoming inconsistent is a form of lying. When we got with you in the beginning we accepted who u were and what u were giving then, if u change or stop, u r no longer who u were then therefore you lied to us about what u really were about and who u really are! Believe it or not, if you never called consistently in the beginning we aren't going to expect it now, but don't be all pressed to impress, then and expect US to be ok w/ the SLACKER who seemed to get too DAMN comfortable. When u drop off the face of the earth for what u think is a moment, there is always a man challenging your title, that is definitely worth defending. If you r gonna be a scatter brain throughout the "relationship" (or lack there of) then opt for being consistently inconsistent, but please, please, i plead for u to just stay consistent in being inconsistent. If for some reason things are headed for change and u feel it coming then please refer back to C1, COMMUNICATE that a change is coming, so we wont be taken for loop. Its like your dating a woman for years touching her long "Indian like" hair (cause she told you she got Cherokee in her), and one night it all just slips off, no warning, no nothing, your left there with a hand full of hair and a woman you thought you knew!!
Disclosure.....
Triple C Effect only works when used together Harmoniously, failure to incorporate all three together leads to dysfunction! But BELIEVE ME, these three rules will grant you the relationship you desire, WHATEVER that relationship is!!
This was so beautifully said. I have to refer back to this very often.
I told you guys that this would be a 4 part series.
Here is part 2 where she ad-lib covers Boys II Men, Maxwell, and some Meshell Ndegeocello yum yum. If your ears thirst like mine do for this kind of stuff then you will love it.
Just a little something to salute those who stood in place for us, our family, and friends who did not. A thank you to those who risked their lives, limbs, and sanity so that we could live free.
Cee-lo Green of the beloved Goodie Mob and Gnarls Barkley recently released his album 'The Lady Killer'
I haven't gotten the chance to really listen to this yet but I say cop that just because we all know that he's a mad scientist when it comes to music. (And if you didn't know, Congratulations now you know (-; ).
This is the second video off of the album 'Bright Lights, Bigger City'
p.s. I can't wait for the upcoming Gnarls Barkley Album =D
I didn't make you do it or be it. And because I don't agree with it I'm "so judgmental"
I don't like how people use the "judgmental card" to pacify their guilt. I am indeed opinionated (Thank God! one step from slavery). Yes I have my own views and beliefs but I am far from judgmental. I am way too empathetic and compassionate for that.
"If you don't agree, you're judging me"(The mind set)
With judgment comes justice (so I assume) for some party involved, and I am not (nor do I aim to be) the one who bangs the gavel and grants justice to anyone. All because I don't like something someone chooses to do/say/be doesn't mean my love for the person is gone. Until it starts to affect me personally, it's all love............but if or when it does.........INSTANT REMOVAL lol. If I don't like it, then I don't like it dayum -_-
So stop using that weakass line "don't judge me" and deal with your issues!
This guy is too funny. He's so sensitive but I love it. I guess it's the artist in him.
I didn't understand his mercy for Bush -_- . Ok so no the fool may not be racist but, He is inhumane =/ so at least he doesn't discriminate I guess O_o FOH!
(I won't even entertain his foolish comment on what the worst even of his presidency was. It further justifies my beliefs)
So Kanye decided to further his ranting on twitter smh poor thing.
This is why he ranted even more:
I love how he's so human with every interview. His delivery is so passionate and unscripted. I chuckle and smile because he's not a robot.............."I don't need all that jazz" smdh lmfao
Matt Lauer is ridiculous. Trying to justify what happened. Although it may be a norm to play clips. I do believe you are suppose to be courteous and tailor your interviewing approach to your guests in order to receive the answers you're aiming for. Idk maybe that's just me =/
So the word is that she's promising a new album January 2011 =D............But it's been said that she has yet to start recording. She did say that the new album will have a similar feel of Back to Black her second album. I'm excited either way. Even if she doesn't drop the album in January, she's at least thinking and speaking of an album (maybe writing). I'm satisfied knowing that.
In other great news, she has still managed to successfully design for Fred Perry and even model for the Amy Winehouse line.
Black Girls Rock celebrated their 5th annual awards on BET Nov 7 (It should air again pretty soon). Black Girls Rock is a Movement aimed toward acknowledging and supporting Black women who have made notable positive accomplishments. This movement is the vision of Ms. Beverly Bond.
I'm so happy BET decided to sponsor and promote this so that more of the public could be aware of this movement. This night honored so many well known and not so well known, young and seasoned Black Women who have made and are continuing to make a difference. (Marquis Elite will definitely be amongst thee soon ;-) )
'Living Legend' Honoree Ruby Dee touched my whittle soul.
Mind you I watched this the day after I saw 'For Colored Girls' smh (puffy faced with headache and all from that movie) this radiant Black Girl made me cry again lol with a smile on my face.
So it's been a while since my last post. I went to see 'For Colored Girls' and it's just had me stuck for a few days. It was way more than I had ever imagined. Tyler is undoubtedly timeless for this piece. This will definitely be a literary piece in education.
So I cried like the emotional being that I am (yay for that......... the power to feel). Every Black female in the world should be ordered to witness this masterpiece brought to life.
I applaud each and every actress (and actor) who partook in this. Everyone played their part so well.
I've been trying to find the words to express simply the way I feel about this movie and I keep getting stuck. I was just touched on so many levels (I'm tearing as I type now smdh). It was very therapeutic. And I'm so thankful to have witnessed such greatness.
I'm proud to be who/what I am. This movie has just forced me to be a better me. I pray that my light shines bright enough in the right way to influence and inspire someone to be a better them.
Thank you Tyler
p.s. This is definitely Oscar worthy for so many categories
In this sextape Marsha Ambrosius (the songstress of the late amazing and truly missed Floetry) covers many yummy sensual oldies but goodies. Of course she samples my Hubby Marvin Gaye. Stay tuned because this a four part series.
Today is a very special day! Not only is this the day where you are able to exercise your right to vote in this US of A (please do if you haven't yet), but on this day your ears may finally be serenaded with the eclectic, colorful, alternative funk, rock sounds of ....
on their heavily awaited album....
which was suppose to come out June 15 of this year O_o
But now it's here and I'm so happy =D
Here is their latest video from the album 'Hypnotize U'..................I'm in love lol
Don't you dare put me in a room w/ flashing dim lights, a platform, maybe a mirror, and maybe a fan with this song BLASTING. I'm warning you now. CAUTION!!!!
;-) I'm just sayin
anywho check these beautiful people out on their website
This man is not playing. Persistence is the game he's playing. I don't blame him. I'm actually shocked that no one with a certain level of hierarchy in the industry has backed him. I know topics like this in the black community are taboo but if these boy(s) were indeed raped then justice should be served.
Yall also peep how he put his fellow boy band mate lil Fizz on blast and he put Bow Wow on blast (lowkey though but not really O_o). I'm not shocked at none of it.
If these allegations are indeed true I hope he rapes their (Marques Houston, Chris Stokes) bank accounts. =/
I know that sometimes these are necessary in order for people to grasp understanding (psych 101) but most times I hate it.
I am a walking, breathing, living paradox. Consistent contradictions all over me :-D
The limitations people trap themselves in when they allow people to force them into a box that their mind can conceptualize. Some people have to continuously fight to live outside of the frames. I say as long as the mirrors reflect a smile of acceptance, continue to color life outside the lines. It takes courage to walk on those bricks of freedom, and some people may be shed. The understanding and acceptance that all who may come into my life may not have a lifetime purpose in my life..... I take it one brick at a time. (it's sometimes hard to grasp.........sometimes effortlessly understandable).
I strive to unhook the chains of the mind.
This entrapment can appear in many forms. It can be self-inflicted due to fear. Friends and family can try and stunt or shun your growth by expecting you to be the "same ole person you use to be". Yes there may be an essence that is rooted but all roots blossom in some form (there can be an essence that develops and matures). And it's not a crime.
Moving forward I'm trying not to use the word "type" in describing myself. I just am. I don't even use the word when asked to describe what I am attracted to. I often say "I don't really have a type". I just don't want to believe that people can be so surfacedly categorized without any dynamics.
I'm thankful for my mommy for showing me that there wasn't anything I couldn't do because of what I did do. Or there that there was nothing that I couldn't be because of what I already was. (I don't know if that makes any sense to you but it surly sings home to my logic lol.) Example: I was a ballerina that was also a black belt. Both instructors tried to force me to choose between the two as if I didn't possess the talent to successfully master both. ..............................
Smdh at the ceilings that adults tried to place upon me even as a child whose main purpose at the time was to just be a sponge soaking up any and every ounce of positivity possible in order to grow wide. (by the way I excelled at both hmph)
I think this is why I love classic black and white. Even though it's written either/or, we all know that those two colors alone have different shades, hues, depths, and grays. Even the two colors that seem so simply distinct, are profoundly complex.
All of boxes, bubbles & frames built by society, family, religion, and ourselves force some of us to create our own world. This is where the mind usually gets some exercise (imagination is boundless).
