Today Should Be A Holiday

Merry Born to my lover Tupac Amaru Shakur!!!! Today he is 40 years infinity :'-)

Enjoy these video's in his memory:









such vigor, wisdom, awareness, compassion, honesty, vulnerability, service, activism, and pure humaness with all of it's beautiful flaws

It's like why do you care so much to be so aware?!?!?!?!? He was born a Profit #stamp

"reading, writing, arithmetic......... REPEAT" .......... "we're not being taught to deal with the world as it is"

Tradition vs Learning Tools

Kim's ideal middle school/high school courses

- Gentrification -HIV/AIDS -Drugs -Poverty -Religious Cults -Politics -Philosophy series -Racism in America -Intense Sex Education -Credit -Currency -Arts (various) -Debt -Law Enforcement (Police Brutality) the list goes on

"Can I have my 'x' plus '2' and give me my 'y' change back, thank you" LMAO

A pure representation of  Collective Work & Responsibility . I love him so much yall lol. I'll stop right here because I could kill you with how I feel about him. Really!

I won't shed any light on the bullshyt that has coincidentally just happened to surface at this time regarding him -_- yall can read that elsewhere.

Happy Easter!!! Indeed He Lives =D

This time always pulls something out of me one way or another. One year I cried in sadness for Jesus. One year I cried in pity and empathy for Judas. Last night I smiled at the information and peace I received about "The Lost 40 Days" (the 40 days after Jesus was resurrected before he ascended to heaven).Today I cried in thanks for such a sacrifice. Thee most beautiful story I have ever heard in my life. Nothing tops the plot of this story. From the rising action to the falling action, the climax and the resolution/non-resolution and all of this mystery still. I'm growing to accept the mystery for the gaps get filled bit by bit with my spiritual growth. (But I will say that there are numerous "non-official gospels written that did not make the "Orthodox Church"es cut for the Bible O_o............. and of course these missing books fill in many gaps and answer tons of questions O_o)

Today my spirit received:

If God is for us, who shall be against us?!?!?! Fear Not!!!! Because He lives, Love triumphs. Because He lives, deliverance is promised, Because he lives, integrity is legitimized. Because He lives, we live =D So run tell dat lol and don't focus on the words, God will provide them. So go and tell someone. It doesn't do any good to sit on your wisdom and blessings. Bless someone else through HIM. How do I know this..................  :) I FEELTHIS!

p.s. The greatest discovery occurred when a woman discovered the living savior ;-)

 (note: the "official book" doesn't capitalize on this discovery. Just a mention that's about it. know that there is an entire gospel written on the woman who discovered him and that story. Not trying to deter anyone's belief. I myself just love Jesus so much that I want to know all that I am able to be delivered to about him =/ )

I'm so oddly inquisitive when it comes to religion. Even in the doubting times of today, I do believe my qualms are uniquely different. I know the gospel says "lean not on thine own understanding". This scripture rings in my head everyday and I ask back well how can I not when I'm built on reasoning?! The first phrases I can recall were "What if?...........Why not?" Things must make sense to me in order for me to function even to the point where sometimes I have to force and create the sense. Knowing this scripture and understanding that mystery surrounds religion, I've been praying for deliverance from doubt through my questions. Last night I learned of the Apostle Doubting Thomas (whose gospel also didn't make the the Biblical cut O_o) and in learning about him I've forgiven myself for search for understanding.

Collective Work & Responsibility (cont.)

Gosh I stay in love with him. And I speak of him in a present state because he's so #TIMELESS. The clock went dead on him and I know that sounds crazy but he conquered death through many vessels of himself; His prophecies, and his awareness and his fearlessness to make others aware stand alone. His music, interviews, and other platforms reign supreme and supersede his ashes because they're more than significant today. I salute him for his selflessness and his acceptance of the responsibilities that came with his mind, his understanding, his celebrity, his gifts, his following, his heart. I assume it's much more easier to ignore it and continue to solely maintain and uplift self (I can't bring myself to ever do that and I have tried =/ shit's just not for me). 

I wonder how it would be if we all one day realized that we aren't put here for self...............

He's my warrior. He's my best friend.

I spoke on some of these issue this other day with Today's Lesson at the end.

Collective Work & Responsibility


Words for today: Be an adult and clean up after yourself  -_-

Today's Lesson.................................

($0.02: I agree with both parties but I do believe with some rappers ignorance is bliss; for once you become aware of something that affects a people that you identify with and you have a platform where you are more heard and felt than the next man, one would think it would be quite difficult to shy away/disown your responsibility as a citizen to your community............... but I do wish that parents would take the time to PARENT their children and stop allowing the television and the head phones to substitute their role)

abundant vacancy .............. =/

Class Dismissed


Extra Credit ;-P

the saddest song I've ever cried

sad that memories never die
just fill your head with why
then you're caught living a lie again
its sad that all he ever said
was that he loved me to death
but that hes gone again and I was wrong again

cause you think its easier easy like that
just when I wasn't finished
you were gone like that
cant you hear me crying
cause I need you back
and I'm slowly dying
cause I need you bad
but your gone
and never coming back
gone and not coming back
hes never coming back

should've known the long kiss goodbye
would bring sadness in my life
wearing this disguise again
I wish that you would've said
or lied to me instead
like a bullet to my head
like a fool I pretend
that its on again on again 

whoever said look on the brighter side
has never been on mine
whoever said that he'll get his
never felt like this
ain't no use in crying when you're done like that
cause baby baby you took something
that I cant buy back
and now you're gone and never coming back
coming back
oh hes not coming back

when I heard this for the 1st time and even now, it yanked the tears from my eyes. Usually you can feel when you're about to cry (I would've rathered  that notion so I could have prevented the tears for a song like this) but I didn't get that preliminary. I noticed I cried once I felt the drops fall from my face. Which kinda creeped me out because I thought my eyes and face were numb smh. So basically I had no control over what the song did to me.


Melanie Fiona "Gone and Never Coming Back" from joseph labisi on Vimeo.

Oprah's suicidal thoughts

I found this to be very interesting. I'm thankful that she shared this and I'm sure people will try to judge her. But it's not her job to care what people think.

Farewell 2010

OMG I can't believe this year is coming to an end. This year I have overcome so much. Although a bit delayed but indeed I'm on the greener side of certain situations.

The numbness of 2009 faded with my courage to feel this year =) I'm no longer the zombie I use to be (applause). Even though now-a-days I'm always shedding tears for dam near everything, just to be able to feel so abundantly enough to cry is huge compared to last year and the year before. I journeyed back to my empathetic self  (gift and a curse but I'll take that any day over nonchalant indifference).

This year I created, I changed some lives, and I danced. I gained foresight with clarity and I've decoded some of the chains that have held me back from freedom.

I'm thankful for those I've traveled through this year with. Everyone I hold dear to me has brought value to my life in some way. All Godsends to my spirit, to my mourning, to my happiness. (I could hug and kiss them until the end of time) I take so much pride in all of them.

I'm thankful for those I've had to remove myself from. All are responsible for some of the vital lessons I've learned this year. Helping me to reflect upon myself and teaching me the power of forgiveness. There is no hate, just space ;-) ...........(mucho space for some lol)

 lol

I've loved my family so hard this year. Taking the time to really feel how they touch my life. They are my home, my safe space away from the corrupt ass ways of the world. I've seen that and the value in having that so LOUD this year.

I have also continued learning how to value myself. This year I have  loved me on a different level. I'm such a freakin WINNER even with my losses I've always won. I've rediscovered why I am so special and that the road less traveled is a royal one that everyone doesn't have to understand. (rare gem) I am ok with myself and most times by myself lol (really) I've become (again) one of my own very best friends. In knowing all of this I am able to respect myself as such.

I'm looking into the New Year with prosperity, movement, LOVE, grace, growth and REFINEMENT ;-)

I plan to be fearless in shinning my light wherever I stand.

We Give Thanks

Today is Thanksgiving!!!

And I guess this is the day we remember to give thanks. I mean us who could care less about that whole "pilgrim story" =/ (well the story they'd like us to believe anyway).

Even though I whisper my "thank you's" everyday, I'm glad for this day when we can come together in unison with our hearts and belly's and say "Thank you" :-)

There is so much for me to be thankful for I could write a book lol. Most of all I'm thankful to BE. Thankful to LOVE. Thankful to SEE. Thankful to FEEL.

I'm blessed to have a family that I love with every ounce of me through all the storms, and I love'em right back. I'm blessed to have friends that are loyal and posers that live to betray me. I'm thankful for the adversities that lead to the sweet sweet triumphs. I'm thankful for the vision that looks in the mirror fearlessly (I see all my beauty and all my ugly and I'm not afraid). I'm thankful for this gift/ this curse; EMPATHY that allows me to feel and connect on a real raw level. I'm so thankful for this light I have within and the spirit that surrounds me, protecting me. I feel it so LOUD!! 

I'm so thankful for this happy I posses even in my solitude. (don't doubt it's real lol). I'm thankful for what lies ahead (so anxious for that). I'm thankful for this feisty fighter I have inside me that is so passion driven.........

Ok so now I'm in tears so I'll stop here but I am oh so very very thankful for so many things. Even the little things. :'-) 

Yall all have a safe and festive Thanksgiving!!! I'm thankful for you too.

A moment of silence for the Native Americans who were abused in the name of this day. And for those today that may not have a family or food. I ask that nourishment is provided in some way.

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Amen. Now eat up

iWatch: 'Winnie'

I will be going to watch 'Winnie" whenever they decide to release it on the silver screen.





So as you can see the movie stars Jennifer Hudson as Winnie Mandela and Terrance Howard as Nelson Mandela

I cross my fingers for Mr. Howard to win an academy award every time he plays a role in a movie.

Seeking Amy

Updates on Amy..............

So the word is that she's promising a new album January 2011 =D............But it's been said that she has yet to start recording. She did say that the new album will have a similar feel of Back to Black her second album. I'm excited either way. Even if she doesn't drop the album in January, she's at least thinking and speaking of an album (maybe writing). I'm satisfied knowing that.

In other great news, she has still managed to successfully design for Fred Perry and even model for the Amy Winehouse line.

She looks great. I'm so happy for her :-)

Go ahead and jam a little bit lol:

  Amy Winehouse - 11 - Addicted by EstebanNC

I am Timeless & I Rock!

I rock because I'm a winner! 

I rock because I have the courage to feel! 

I rock because I love all the time everyday! 

I rock because my mommy rocks! 

I rock I have royalty running through my veins!

I rock because I understand!

I rock because I am loved soooooooo much!

I rock because I want you to rock too!

I rock because my ancestors rocked before me!

I rock because I must! 

I rock because I know and feel God!

;-)

Black Girls Rock celebrated their 5th annual awards on BET Nov 7 (It should air again pretty soon). Black Girls Rock is a Movement aimed toward acknowledging and supporting Black women who have made notable positive accomplishments. This movement is the vision of Ms. Beverly Bond.

I'm so happy BET decided to sponsor and promote this so that more of the public could be aware of this movement. This night honored so many well known and not so well known, young and seasoned Black Women who have made and are continuing to make a difference. (Marquis Elite will definitely be amongst thee soon ;-) )

'Living Legend' Honoree Ruby Dee touched my whittle soul.

BET Videos

            My face was definitely wet with tears after this :'-). She's so humble, she's so Royal

I was also VERY moved by Anika Noni Rose and why she rocks.

BET Videos

 Mind you I watched this the day after I saw 'For Colored Girls' smh (puffy faced with headache and all from that movie) this radiant Black Girl made me cry again lol with a smile on my face.     

To see more from this amazing show click here

Stuck: 'For Colored Girls'

So it's been a while since my last post. I went to see 'For Colored Girls' and it's just had me stuck for a few days. It was way more than I had ever imagined. Tyler is undoubtedly timeless for this piece. This will definitely be a literary piece in education.

So I cried like the emotional being that I am (yay for that......... the power to feel). Every Black female in the world should be ordered to witness this masterpiece brought to life.

I applaud each and every actress (and actor) who partook in this. Everyone played their part so well.

I've been trying to find the words to express simply the way I feel about this movie and I keep getting stuck. I was just touched on so many levels (I'm tearing as I type now smdh). It was very therapeutic. And I'm so thankful to have witnessed such greatness.

I'm proud to be who/what I am. This movie has just forced me to be a better me. I pray that my light shines bright enough in the right way to influence and inspire someone to be a better them.

Thank you Tyler

p.s. This is definitely Oscar worthy for so many categories

Beautiful Testimony: What A Joy It Is

I can't get through this song without breaking down



Amen!